Here I Am...Again

I guess this is my habit when i'm really sad and i got no one to talk to....or should i say..i can't talk to them anymore...right now i feel really sucky and it's been so long since i have this emotional time.. i want things like how it used to be...i don;t like changes...i don;t like something that i can;t have or something that keep popping in my head but it's not there for me to hold it....the thought of it makes me feel lonely and insecure...i remember the last time i had some difficult issue with my mom..that was my saddest and hardest moment in my life...i've never cried that much in my life...and i'm feeling the same thing now...call me emo queen ;)