Carnival & Got Milk

On friday i went to Justin's carnival which was at Bukit Jalil...it's a church event so if i'm not mistaken it should be some charity event too...so i went there to look for him and give him a lil support since he has been nice to me =))) When i reached there i saw few Harley Davidson bikes..they loook AMAZING!! You can actually try riding on it by paying RM5 and a lot of ppl were interested with the ride...they sell food, clothes and there's different type of games...it was simply FUN! I get to meet new ppl and BEAT JUSTIN in Wii game..wooohooo!!! Thx to him, i get to have a productive friday *wink*

My Purple Poodle ^^

Mr Justin =p

So on sunday, i'm working in Pavilion for Dutch Lady with a bunch of my friends and my sis..it was a good experience and the time passed kinda fast. The event it's actually about breaking the Malaysia World Record on thousand of ppl drinking milk at the same time on World Milk Day..so yeah..you can imagine how cool is that..the public were being supportive but we have few customers that were !@@$$#^. I got bombarded by few aunties who were so eager to lay their hands on the free milk...haiz...but that will not ruin my day coz I have a lot of nice customers too!! They were being nice to me and all...gahh... the best part bout this work is, i GOT $$ on the spot!! Damn syok!! But i gotta save money..tsk tsk tsk..so i promise myself not to shop for now as I have more important plan ahead of me =)))

...Certificate ...

Adore

How was my day?? Let see...i got attacked by this indian guy who is known for being "weird" and "annoying"...how unlucky can I be? I gotta suffer for one and a half hour hearing him talking coz he was sitting beside me...he told me that he will get me a sari as a present?? *hello, i just met you!!* I totally freaked out by him and I know my days will be in hell in future coz I have TWO classes that's same with him!! Baa~ why do i have to bump into weird ppl? He's not the 1st case...T.T my hearts tell me he's a disaster when he sat next to me...*God, please save me!!*

Confession

With all these crazy things that had been going on around me, it's hard for me to not to break down. Sometimes i think i'm insane coz i can be so bi-polar. I can smile in front of someone and cry the next moment. What is wrong with me? I don't wanna be a crying baby..but this emotion is just so hard to control and I slowly give in. I don't even know how to express my feeling out. So here I am..blogging it instead. Some said I gotta share my problems so that I won't feel bad but what do I get form sharing it? Pityness from them? That would be the last thing I need. I know i'm stubborn so i'm sorry if I pissed you off. I tend to shut myself out whenever i'm sad. I'll just lock myself in a room and cry as loud as I want. Recently i've been throwing stuff to release my pain..i know this is bad. I'm just in so much of pain. I even tried smoking. It does makes me feel better but I know this can't be a long term solution. I'm trying to overcome this wound but it's so hard to do it by myself. Even the thought of it could hurt so much....i just need to move away from this place. I'm working hard to achieve this. All I need is patience.

I guess you should know..

I'm the type that forgive but hard to forget. It's in my horoscope...it's time to be rebellious.

Welcome To My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you.

This is where I stand.

Psychological Test

Which is your favourite Teletubbie...

A. Yellow
B. Purple
C. Green
D. Red

(DECIDE BEFORE SCROLLING DOWN)

Profile for WOMEN
A. If you chose the Yellow Teletubbie.
You are bubbly and cheerful. People come to you when troubled because you always make them feel better about themselves. You are apt to clash with Red Teletubbie people!
B. If you chose the Purple Teletubbie.
You are active and erratic. You have many ideas and set high standards for yourselves and others. Stay away from Green Teletubbie people, they tend to bring you down.
C. If you chose the Green Teletubbie.
You are calm and reliable. Family plays a major role in your life and you often sacrifice your needs to please others. Yellow Teletubbie people are a good match for you.
D. If you chose the Red Teletubbie.
You are bold and emotional. You are fierce in your opinions and quick to anger, but stick by your friends through thick and thin. Purple and Red Teletubbie people are an explosive combination.

Rainy Day

These few days the weather had been hot n cold. At one point I feel like melting and now I feel like wrapping myself like a kebab. I was supposed to go for my tutorial class at 5pm but looks like God doesn't want me to go by "crying so hard". Staying at home for almost whole day kills me!! I feel groggy to the point I wanna puke @.@ Someone please save me from this emotion...=(

*psst : i'm missing missing you*

Heartbreak Warfare

Lightning strikes
Inside, my chest to keep me up at night
Dream of ways
To make you understand my pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really every wins
In heartbreak warfare

If you want more love,
why don't you say so?
If you want more love,
why don't you say so?

Drop his name
Push it in and twist the knife again
Watch my face
As I pretend to feel no pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really ever wins
In heartbreak warfare.

If you want more love,
why don't you say so?
If you want more love,
why don't you say so?

Just say so...

How come the only way to know how high you get me
is to see how far I fall
God only knows how much I'd love you if you let me
but I can't break free at all.

It's a heartbreak...

I don't care if we don't sleep at all tonight
Let's just fix this whole thing now
I swear to God we're gonna get it right
If you lay your weapon down
Red wine and ambien
You're talking shit again, it's heartbreak warfare
Good to know it's all a game
Disappointment has a name, it's heartbreak warfare.

A Friend in Need?

Never do things out of guilt. It hurts the other party. Everything you said or do looks so fake to me. I'm sorry.

I Missed

them...

Love My Weekend

After few days of not seeing him, finally we get to hang out on a beautiful saturday...we went for shopping and last minute i decided not to go for my uncle dinner so that I can spend more time with him..I know you're gonna have your exam soon so it's better for you to have fun while you're still on the free-mode =p

So yeah, after dinner he drop by my house and HOHOHO!!! He saw my messy bedroom....yaikz!! *pai seh pai seh* I love how we spent our quality time together a.k.a so-called "make out" session..hahaha *inside joke* It's just so funny that how things always turn out to be and that makes me fall deeper and deeper for you..we can be so random at times and I treasure every memories I have with you =) Well my friends have been telling me about how things will be after 6 months, but in my mind, i have faith in us...

So let's pray hard that we won't get paranoid during and after 6 months XD

Strange

I was so frust today that i just shut everyone out of my world.

I have the hatred feeling like adrenaline rush...

and all I think about was, how come you don't understand me after so long?

I fee like I have no one to turn to..empty.

I was so frust and feeling lonely at the same time

because of you.

You never get me.

and that is the reason why we can't communicate.

I just feel so disappointed..again.

1 hour of waiting kills everything in me....

Voice

"How come the only way to know how high you get me
is to see how far I fall"

Happy Mother's Day

Korean dinner = Porkilicious! Yummy!!

Mom & Dad *i love you guys!!*

Soju *like*

A tose to Mother's Day!!

Me : Mom, give us ur kenyang look...

Mom : *pose*

The rebellious us XD

cupcakes by +wondermilk <3

Just look at their smile..

Showing their love =)

As you can see, i had korean dinner to celebrate Mother's Day and my mom just love it because the food there it's all about P.O.R.K. My whole family is babi lover so yeah..we love having korean bbq =) and a lot of soju too...tsk tsk tsk.

Dear Mommy,

I know i'm always being so rebellious and we often quarrel..but i'll still love you no matter wert because when i fall, you were the one who lift me up *although in the process it's all about nagging* I used to cry whenever you're not around for work or holiday because i just miss u so much..and i can't afford to imagine my life without you...I'm sorry that I can't be your ideal daughter but i promise that i won't give up trying to be a better daughter....I LOVE YOU <3

For Him

He's totally adorable

Wicked

Lovable

Sweet

Corrupted =p

Chilled

Positive

Caring

and most of all

He's all MINE =)