I.am.stress.coz.of.assignment.
I.am.stress.of.my.life.
and now my back hurts for facing my laptop too long. Baaaaa~
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Stress
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Saturday, June 26, 2010
The 12 Types of Women
So which do you prefer? =p
Advantages
a. You have some one to manage your money.
b. She always looks good.
c. She makes your other niggas jealous.
d. She makes you look good.
Disadvantages
a. When you get broke she'll be gone and take what you have left.
b. She makes sure she has a child by you to sue you for child support.
c. Once your nigga comes up she'll be on his arm the next day.
2. Ms. Freak (secret lover)
Advantages
a. She knows all the right positions.
b. She'll try everything more than once.
c. You're never unsatisfied.
d. She'll do all the things your girl won't do.
e. She doesn't mind being your freak, as long as she catches one too.
Disadvantages
a. Eventually, b/c she's a female, she'll end up catching feelings.
b. She starts to act like she's your main.
c. She mess wit ya boy and act like you in the wrong for telling that she's a freak.
d. Eventually her i can't read gets old. And you need a replacement.
3. Ms. Independent
Advantages
a. You don't have to worry about buying her anything. She got it.
b. She's intelligent, sassy, confident and determined.
c. She's great for (business) conversation.
d. She keeps it real and has goals.
e. She knows how to please a man.
Disadvantages
a. She will continuously let you know, that she can handle it on her own.
b. She will eventually say i can't read you and get a dildo.
c. She will consider you another one her play toys, or goals.
4. Ms. Dyme
Advantages
a. She's top of the line.
b. She stays looking like a fantasy.
c. She has the body of a goddess with the face to match.
d. She considers herself a model.
e. Gets you on hard whenever you see her.
f. All the girls envy her, but she doesn't care.
Disadvantages
a. She's superficial. She cares only about her looks.
b. She honestly lacks confidence and will annoy you about the way she looks.
c. She's probably dumb as hell and if she's not her personality is dry.
d. You have to constantly keep your game up b/c every nigga is gonna try to get her.
5. Ms. Tomboy
Advantages
a. She's cool and laid back.
b. She'll be willing to play rough with you.
c. Of course, she loves sports.
d. Her body is athletically divine.
e. She's easy to talk to and fun to be around.
f. She's a diamond in the rough.
Disadvantages
a. She'll remind you too much of your nigga.
b. She might not want to change her appearance.
c. She might actually beat you in basketball, football and track.
6. Ms. Ghetto
Advantages
a. She's not afraid of any other female or male. She will fight to keep you.
b. She's down for you. She'll be there to bail you out of jail.
c. She's always stays fresh.
d. She can cook up a storm. She can make the best out of a bad situation.
e. She keeps it real and keeps you satisfied.
Disadvantages
a. She doesn't know how to act in public.
b. Your mother can't stand her.
c. You get into it with her every other second.
d. She's willing to fight another girl looking at you or her PERIOD.
e. Her weave colors are distracting and her vocabulary is minimal.
7. Ms. Good Girl
Advantages
a. She's always there for you.
b. She's intelligent, classy, kind, sweet and cool.
c. Your mother loves her.
d. You can see yourself falling in love with her.
e. You are her first everything.
f. She makes you feel like a man.
Disadvantages
a. She's an A or B situation either: A. You're not gonna get any until ya'll are married or B. She said she never done it she said she never tried she's sitting there telling a mutha *bleeping* lie.
8. Ms. Main
Advantages
a. She is the one you respect.
b. She probably may know about the others but might not care.
c. She has all the qualities you want in a female.
d. You've been with her forever.
Disadvantages
a. She starts getting very suspicious and calls you every moment.
b. She will devise a plan to catch you in your act and then kick your ass.
9. Ms. Psycho
Advantages
a. She's fun and spontaneous.
b. She's down to earth.
c. She loves you unconditionally.
d. Everything about her is too good to be true. So everyone loves her.
e. She makes you feel loved.
Disadvantages
a. Don't you break up with her. She will stalk your ass.
b. She keeps pictures of you everywhere and knows everything about you.
c. She can manipulate the hell out of you.
d. She will consider herself wifey even if she may just be that chick on the side.
e. Screwing with her emotions can make your life a living hell.
10. Ms. I have a Man.
Advantages
a. She may have a man but she'll mess with you anyway.
b. She looks good.
c. You have an intense night of passion with her.
Disadvantages
a. She'll always come crying to you about the problems with her man.
b. She'll get you caught up and then leave you anyway for her man.
c. If you piss her off she'll get her man to come beat your ass.
d. She'll unofficially make you her man once she gets pissed off at her real man.
11. Ms. Tease
Advantages
a. She's tempting and a nice piece of eye candy.
b. She's intelligent, athletic, respectable and SEXXXXXXY.
c. She knows how to turn you on without touching you.
d. Everything she does is just so sensual.
e. She can bring you to that point and make you wait to get it.
f. Every time you see her you catch a mini orgasm.
g. Every nigga wants her b/c she's so mysterious and that makes you want to get her first.
Disadvantages
a. NO matter what you think or do you never get it.
b. She probably has a long distance boyfriend somewhere that you will never know about.
c. She gets you hard and leaves you like that. (Unbearable)
12. MRS. RIGHT
Advantages
a. She is not sexy, fine, or a dyme she is Beautiful and therefore encompasses all of these descriptions.
b. She is intelligent, sassy, funny, outgoing, determined, strong and classy.
c. She can cook or at least order a meal that is just like your mother�s.
d. Her personality makes her more beautiful than any model
e. She believes in God and follows his virtues.
f. She knows that a relationship requires a 200% quota yet she gives her man an extra 10%.
g. She can please her man in anyway. Mentally, Spiritually, and Sexually.
h. She makes you recognize your full potential as a man and completes you.
i. She's always there for, no matter what your dreams are.
j. She's not afraid to tell you the truth and set you straight.
k. You can talk to her and confide in her, she's your best friend.
l. You love being around her more than your boys.
m. You can share your most intimate moments with her without sex.
n. You can have a bad argument with her and have the BEST Mind Numbing and passionate love making fest ever.
o. She's always willing to find a way to work out your problems and will often take most of your i can't read. But she's also intelligent enough to leave.
p. She's nothing like any other girl you've met. She's your woman.
***Disadvantage***
a. You've probably met her, or had her in your life but got too consumed with all the other types that you let her go.
c. Of course, she loves sports.
d. Her body is athletically divine.
e. She's easy to talk to and fun to be around.
f. She's a diamond in the rough.
Disadvantages
a. She'll remind you too much of your nigga.
b. She might not want to change her appearance.
c. She might actually beat you in basketball, football and track.
6. Ms. Ghetto
Advantages
a. She's not afraid of any other female or male. She will fight to keep you.
b. She's down for you. She'll be there to bail you out of jail.
c. She's always stays fresh.
d. She can cook up a storm. She can make the best out of a bad situation.
e. She keeps it real and keeps you satisfied.
Disadvantages
a. She doesn't know how to act in public.
b. Your mother can't stand her.
c. You get into it with her every other second.
d. She's willing to fight another girl looking at you or her PERIOD.
e. Her weave colors are distracting and her vocabulary is minimal.
7. Ms. Good Girl
Advantages
a. She's always there for you.
b. She's intelligent, classy, kind, sweet and cool.
c. Your mother loves her.
d. You can see yourself falling in love with her.
e. You are her first everything.
f. She makes you feel like a man.
Disadvantages
a. She's an A or B situation either: A. You're not gonna get any until ya'll are married or B. She said she never done it she said she never tried she's sitting there telling a mutha *bleeping* lie.
8. Ms. Main
Advantages
a. She is the one you respect.
b. She probably may know about the others but might not care.
c. She has all the qualities you want in a female.
d. You've been with her forever.
Disadvantages
a. She starts getting very suspicious and calls you every moment.
b. She will devise a plan to catch you in your act and then kick your ass.
9. Ms. Psycho
Advantages
a. She's fun and spontaneous.
b. She's down to earth.
c. She loves you unconditionally.
d. Everything about her is too good to be true. So everyone loves her.
e. She makes you feel loved.
Disadvantages
a. Don't you break up with her. She will stalk your ass.
b. She keeps pictures of you everywhere and knows everything about you.
c. She can manipulate the hell out of you.
d. She will consider herself wifey even if she may just be that chick on the side.
e. Screwing with her emotions can make your life a living hell.
10. Ms. I have a Man.
Advantages
a. She may have a man but she'll mess with you anyway.
b. She looks good.
c. You have an intense night of passion with her.
Disadvantages
a. She'll always come crying to you about the problems with her man.
b. She'll get you caught up and then leave you anyway for her man.
c. If you piss her off she'll get her man to come beat your ass.
d. She'll unofficially make you her man once she gets pissed off at her real man.
11. Ms. Tease
Advantages
a. She's tempting and a nice piece of eye candy.
b. She's intelligent, athletic, respectable and SEXXXXXXY.
c. She knows how to turn you on without touching you.
d. Everything she does is just so sensual.
e. She can bring you to that point and make you wait to get it.
f. Every time you see her you catch a mini orgasm.
g. Every nigga wants her b/c she's so mysterious and that makes you want to get her first.
Disadvantages
a. NO matter what you think or do you never get it.
b. She probably has a long distance boyfriend somewhere that you will never know about.
c. She gets you hard and leaves you like that. (Unbearable)
12. MRS. RIGHT
Advantages
a. She is not sexy, fine, or a dyme she is Beautiful and therefore encompasses all of these descriptions.
b. She is intelligent, sassy, funny, outgoing, determined, strong and classy.
c. She can cook or at least order a meal that is just like your mother�s.
d. Her personality makes her more beautiful than any model
e. She believes in God and follows his virtues.
f. She knows that a relationship requires a 200% quota yet she gives her man an extra 10%.
g. She can please her man in anyway. Mentally, Spiritually, and Sexually.
h. She makes you recognize your full potential as a man and completes you.
i. She's always there for, no matter what your dreams are.
j. She's not afraid to tell you the truth and set you straight.
k. You can talk to her and confide in her, she's your best friend.
l. You love being around her more than your boys.
m. You can share your most intimate moments with her without sex.
n. You can have a bad argument with her and have the BEST Mind Numbing and passionate love making fest ever.
o. She's always willing to find a way to work out your problems and will often take most of your i can't read. But she's also intelligent enough to leave.
p. She's nothing like any other girl you've met. She's your woman.
***Disadvantage***
a. You've probably met her, or had her in your life but got too consumed with all the other types that you let her go.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Fuck You
FUCK YOU, YOU and YOU!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate this..it annoys me and i HATE IT!! GET IT? I know you'll read my blog, so here is for your stubborn brain. I told you before about what i dislike about you and you're still doing the fucking same thing. When I ask u A u gave me Z. Can't u just fucking make up ur mind and just say yes or no??? Sometimes i really have the good intention to treat you nicely but you're always torturing yourselves and being all self pity. It annoys me coz it makes me feel bad. You're not making my life any easier. Why must you think so much whenever i ask you something? Can't u just make it simpler for me and you?? This is the main reason why i can't treat you nicely..you are driving me to corner most of the times.
Fears of a Teenager Mafioso
Fear of love,
Fear of pain,
Fear of the unforgiving cane,
Fear of lies,
Fear of sighs,
Fear of everything combined,
Fear is what makes me blind,
Fear is what makes me think,
and act in blind accordance,
Hindering the world around me,
Hence, My Fear of myself
Fear mocks me, watching
Fear taunts me, waiting
Fear of losing,
Fear you cannot see,
Fear dealt upon thee.
Fear of being endlessly stalked,
Fear of time,
Fear of all the crime,
Fear of the undesirable truth,
Fear for the sake of life,
Fear of the fear of fear,
We need no reason to fear,
For fear has no reason for itself.
I guess life is just like that,
To fear for no reason,
For to fear is not to reason,
But to reason is to fear.
To fear for the sake of fear,
Is fear for fear,
So let me think,
What else do I fear?
Fear of pain,
Fear of the unforgiving cane,
Fear of lies,
Fear of sighs,
Fear of everything combined,
Fear is what makes me blind,
Fear is what makes me think,
and act in blind accordance,
Hindering the world around me,
Hence, My Fear of myself
Fear mocks me, watching
Fear taunts me, waiting
Fear of losing,
Fear you cannot see,
Fear dealt upon thee.
Fear of being endlessly stalked,
Fear of time,
Fear of all the crime,
Fear of the undesirable truth,
Fear for the sake of life,
Fear of the fear of fear,
We need no reason to fear,
For fear has no reason for itself.
I guess life is just like that,
To fear for no reason,
For to fear is not to reason,
But to reason is to fear.
To fear for the sake of fear,
Is fear for fear,
So let me think,
What else do I fear?
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Love You, Love..
Love you, love, for the love you gave
Love you, love, for the love time we had
Love you, love, for the happiness time I got
Love you, love, for your support
Love you, love, for loving me a lot
Love you, love, for giving rest in your arms
Love you, love, for your kisses and hugs
Love you, love, for getting me addicted to you as drugs.....
Happy 4 months Anniversary to you, love <3
Love you, love, for the love time we had
Love you, love, for the happiness time I got
Love you, love, for your support
Love you, love, for loving me a lot
Love you, love, for giving rest in your arms
Love you, love, for your kisses and hugs
Love you, love, for getting me addicted to you as drugs.....
Happy 4 months Anniversary to you, love <3
Monday, June 21, 2010
Emotional Twins?
"While happiness is the twin sibling of despair, it is despair that is the stronger of the two."
Sick and Tired
The bridge is collapsing. I'm lossing my grip. I can't hold on anymore.
I'm just getting sick. I'm sick of feeling crushed. I'm sick of being depressed.
I'm sick of your biasness. Sick of holding all the feelings inside.
I'm just sick of you.
I'm sick of pretending its all perfect....tired of living a lie.
Tired of the tears i cried. Tired of being blue. I'm tired of the stupid things I do...
and one day, you're going to need me, just like I needed you.
But this time, i'm going to ditch you, just like you ditched me.
I'm so sick.
So sick of you.
Friday, June 18, 2010
Depression
Depression is when you hate everyone around.
Depression is when you don't want to make a sound.
Depression is when all you want to do is cry.
Depression is when you feel like you're dying inside.
Depression is when your thoughts wonder all the time.
Depression is when you can't sleep even thought you're tired.
Depression is when you can't stop shaking outside.
Depression is when you put on a mask to hide what you feel.
Depression is when you feel weak all the time.
Depression is when you give in to everything around.
Depression is when you don't care what happen anymore.
Depression is the ultimate cost of denial, when truth is too much to handle.
Depression is just.....another day in my life.
Identity of A Person
Identity of a person
Identity signifies complexity
Identity identifies with reality
Identity is the bearer of all vanity
How does a person identify with identity?
You define yourself based on what?
They say, they say
You’re kind or moral based on what?
Or
You’re a genius and shrewd based on what?
Or
You make the perfect lover, look for no other
They say, they say
You’re strong without a thought it may not last long
Or
You’ve skills since with a record you run up high bills
Or
You are shy but no one ever talks to you or says hi
Or
You never give up because right now you are on top
They say, they say
You are generous or gregarious when all you are is conscious
Or
You’re innovative yet not the originator of the idea conceived
What are the facts?
That makes your identity intact
When change on identity has the last impact?
Identity signifies complexity
Identity identifies with reality
Identity is the bearer of all vanity
How does a person identify with identity?
You define yourself based on what?
They say, they say
You’re kind or moral based on what?
Or
You’re a genius and shrewd based on what?
Or
You make the perfect lover, look for no other
They say, they say
You’re strong without a thought it may not last long
Or
You’ve skills since with a record you run up high bills
Or
You are shy but no one ever talks to you or says hi
Or
You never give up because right now you are on top
They say, they say
You are generous or gregarious when all you are is conscious
Or
You’re innovative yet not the originator of the idea conceived
What are the facts?
That makes your identity intact
When change on identity has the last impact?
*Found this on google. I think it's pretty interesting =) Don't you? *
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Best Friend
As people grow up, they'll begin to change and develop in different ways. Sometimes they'll part in a different directions but sometimes they'll remain by your side. So what do you consider as best friend?
For me, i used to have 2 "best" friends but things become ugly and now we don't even talk to each other. Because of this, i met with another 2 girls who faced almost the same situation as mine..At that moment, we understand each other pain and that has brought us closer for few years. And now, i'm confused about the term "best friend".
I can't even talk to them about my problems because I'm not sure if they will understand how I feel and sometimes, I know they have their issues too. So i took a step back and just put a smile on my face while inside of me is like a tornado going on.. You can say i'm self pity and just wanna keep everything inside of me but sometimes i wonder, do I have anyone to talk to, about my problems, will that someone accept who I am and understand me? You might say yes to all, but in reality, it doesn't go that way.
Everyone has a past and no one is exceptional. We are being a hypocrite to the world and even to ourselves. So how can we trust anyone if they're being dishonest to themselves too? Well, recently i asked my friend what she thinks about me as a friend, and i'm glad she tells me everything. That's what I need, realisation. To be honest, i feel lack of attention from my close friends. So i would do something to get their attention. Each time, things wouldn't last long so I gave up and start to think..Did i do my part as their "best" friend? Comparing to both of them, they really sacrifice a lot for each other..but what about me? Have i done anything for them? None.
I'm a spoilt brat. I'm used to people coming to me and embrace me with their loves. Therefore, i never understand the word of "sacrifice". And because of this, i've ruined everything and lost what i've gained. Here, i would like to apologize for what i've done and if i've hurt you before, I'm sorry.
I took advantages on people and trust me, i got my karma back as i'm suffering with great pain and remorse. I learned my lessons. I'm crawling back and waiting for the day where I could run with freedom. No guilt. No worries. Stop being dependent.
For me, i used to have 2 "best" friends but things become ugly and now we don't even talk to each other. Because of this, i met with another 2 girls who faced almost the same situation as mine..At that moment, we understand each other pain and that has brought us closer for few years. And now, i'm confused about the term "best friend".
I can't even talk to them about my problems because I'm not sure if they will understand how I feel and sometimes, I know they have their issues too. So i took a step back and just put a smile on my face while inside of me is like a tornado going on.. You can say i'm self pity and just wanna keep everything inside of me but sometimes i wonder, do I have anyone to talk to, about my problems, will that someone accept who I am and understand me? You might say yes to all, but in reality, it doesn't go that way.
Everyone has a past and no one is exceptional. We are being a hypocrite to the world and even to ourselves. So how can we trust anyone if they're being dishonest to themselves too? Well, recently i asked my friend what she thinks about me as a friend, and i'm glad she tells me everything. That's what I need, realisation. To be honest, i feel lack of attention from my close friends. So i would do something to get their attention. Each time, things wouldn't last long so I gave up and start to think..Did i do my part as their "best" friend? Comparing to both of them, they really sacrifice a lot for each other..but what about me? Have i done anything for them? None.
I'm a spoilt brat. I'm used to people coming to me and embrace me with their loves. Therefore, i never understand the word of "sacrifice". And because of this, i've ruined everything and lost what i've gained. Here, i would like to apologize for what i've done and if i've hurt you before, I'm sorry.
I took advantages on people and trust me, i got my karma back as i'm suffering with great pain and remorse. I learned my lessons. I'm crawling back and waiting for the day where I could run with freedom. No guilt. No worries. Stop being dependent.
A Promise To Myself
I need to walk out from this mess and never look back.
I fell to many times and I need to get back up.
I'm sorry if i decided to walk out from your life.
I fell to many times and I need to get back up.
I'm sorry if i decided to walk out from your life.
Monday, June 14, 2010
Argh...
I feel really down right now. I can feel the pain in my chest. Me, it's like a song to say goodbye. FARK MY LIFE! *scream*
Stop pretending like nothing is happening.
Stop fooling urself.
Stop smoking.
Stop provoking me.
Stop pretending like nothing is happening.
Stop fooling urself.
Stop smoking.
Stop provoking me.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Random Sunday
I love today weather..therefore, i decided to post bout today =) i went sushi king for lunch with chia and after that we head to jusco for some shopping! Thx to her, I've improved my cooking skill and now i know how to make mushroom soup!!! Huhu...i can make it anytime whenever i'm hungry...and here are few of our camwhore pics XD
Me acting cute..LOL
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Feelings..
Dieser schmerz wird bald aufhoren..verurtiele mich nicht wegen meiner gefuhle...The pain in my chest is haunting me again...it's getting painful to just breathe. And sometimes, I could barely breathe. Denn ich brauche zeit.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
The Hardest Minute in Exam
The hardest minute in exam is when the teacher say:
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"Another five more minutes and I will collect the paper"
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