Dilema

This was supposed to be something happy but I guess it doesn't change anything..All I did was hurting ppl that are important to me and i'm sorry for being a jackass.

Happy Birthday Darling

Dear Christine,

Well you're officially 19 now and thinking how many years i've been celebrated it with you..i'm so glad that your mom asked me to be friends with you.. XD I hope this will continue coz we still have our goals to achieve in 5 years time =) i really can't wait for that day to come... You've been a great great friend to me and that's why I love you so much..no one can replace you and satya..so i just wanna let you know that you're the best B*TCH for me and I'll always love you...stay happy k? Your smile means a lot to me *hugs*

I'm Sorry

I'm sorry if i've hurt you with what I've done,
I know some part in you, you'll be mad at me but you're just trying to hide it..
Hate me kick me is your choice..that's all I can say.. *hugs*

Makes It So Hard Not to Cry

Once again, I feel so useless. Things have been so messed up and just keep hanging there..I guess someone gonna get hurt if things continue to be like this. This is what i fear the most...

Dear Valentine

I'm so grateful for the way you love me, without judgment or condition, with sincerity and the quiet reassurance that feels so comfortable, so right.

You show me, in so many ways, how much you care for me, by your sensitivity, your honesty, and your willingness to face whatever challenges come our way. Your love helps me to know that I'm a lovable person.

Though I never thought I would need anyone as much as I need you, you've taught me that relying on someone doesn't have to mean giving up my own strength and independence, but that together we are stronger than either one of us could be alone.

Thank you for your wisdom, your gentle support, but most important.........
Thank You For Your Love.

Vday & CNY

Happy Valentine day and Gong Xi Fa Cai to you <3

You know who you are and you're the best I've ever had! Love you =)

It's more than I can swallow

Can you count all the times
That you've mended my heart
Just so you could again
Crush it, Break it apart?

Yet, you've got no idea
That I'm hurt all the while
Cause I hide all my pain
With a laugh and a smile

All my rage and frustration
They are secrets to you
I'm a pretty good actor
Cause you don't have a clue

I have made it an art
It's greatest learned skill
Hiding all of this damn
Fuckin pain that I feel

Yet sometimes it leaks through
Sometimes I botch my act
Sometimes you see my pain
Sometimes I can't hold back

I regret if you noticed
I didn't wanna seem shallow
But sometimes it's too much
It's more than I can swallow.......

Random Quote/Saying

"People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

"Your words to me just a whisper, your face is so unclear. I try to pay attention, your words just disappear."

"You don't realize how much you care about someone… until they don't care about you."

"Do your heart a favor, sweetie…just turn around and leave. it may not be what you think you want, but it's what you need." ♥

"When you've found a reason to walk away, never look back... Just keep walking. It's better to get lost moving on than to get stuck and stranded broken."

"Sometimes it's better to let go without knowing the real reason... because it will surely hurt more to find it UNREASONABLE." (this is funny)

" I wonder, when you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break your heart too, even crack it a little bit?"

" Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional."

"Someone should sue Disney for planting the ideas in little kids heads that every girl has a prince and everything ends up happily ever after." ♥

"What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?"

"I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common human with common thoughts and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough." ♥

Is Just Another Phase of Life

I hate growing up. I think I have the peter pan syndrome =( People been telling me that i need to be matured bout this and that but all i wanted is to have fun like any other teenager. The growing up issue had caused me a lot of argument with my close one. This SUCKS..really. I miss my school days and most of all, i miss all my classmates..every morning when u wake up from your bed..you knew that you'll see the same old faces..the warmness in the class just top the morning breeze. =) I still remember our spot in the canteen where all the bitches.. (including me XD) just gather around for gossips and stuff...this is so much fun compare to clubbing..at least more innocent...tsk tsk tsk =p and yes..i miss my holiday also >.<>

-My holiday in Tioman-

My evil friend trying to wake me up...

Morning sunlight =)

Hymn To The Immortal Wind

Well, last saturday Minz brought me to this concert at KL PAC and surprisingly..they ROCK!!She kept telling me about this band, MONO, is all about post rock and instrumental music. To be honest with you, I dunno what the hell was post rock until i went there. All i know was music without involving vocalist..Haha..sorry Minz >.< But hey, now i know what is post rock about. =) And during the concert, they have this featured local artist name "Deepset"..they played a few songs and it was good too..oh btw, they're from Lembah Klang. Both of us were emo that day and we felt so much better after the concert. You wanna know why? Just go check out their music k? =)

-This is how the concert look like-

MONO

And of course, Minz, herself is a musician..I personally adore her music!! Recently she just debuted her own album..her songs just make me think back of my own love life experience and how love can be painful at times. oh well, i just LOVE it =)

Lying My Way From You

When I pretend
Everything is what I want it to be
I look exactly like what you had always wanted to see
When I pretend
I can forget about the criminal I am
Stealing second after second just 'cause I know I can / but
I can't pretend this is the way it will stay / I'm just
Trying to bend the truth
I can't pretend i'm who you want me to be
So I'm

Lying my way from you

[No / No turning back now]
I wanna be pushed aside
So let me go
[No / No turning back now]
Let me take back my life
I'd rather be all alone
[No turning back now]
Anywhere on my own
'Cause I can see
[No / No turning back now]
The very worst part of you
Is me

I remember what they taught to me
Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be
Remember listening to all of that and this again
So I pretended up a person who was fitting in
And now you think this person really is me and I'm
[Trying to bend the truth]
But the more I push
The more I'm pulling away
'Cause I'm

Lying my way from you

This isn't what I wanted to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have you running from me
Like this

The very worst part of you
The very worst part of you
Is me