Get too caught up...

I've been listening to yellow by coldplay like over and over again because it makes me feel at ease...and the song, take me away, just make me laugh about how dong dong am i to say "I'll ta pao you".. I miss this fragment of my memories... =)

If You Forget Me

I think this is beautiful...

I want you to know one thing. You know how this is: if I look at the crystal moon, at the red branch of the slow autumn at my window, if I touch near the fire the impalpable ash or the wrinkled body of the log, everything carries me to you, as if everything that exists, aromas, light, metals, were little boats that sail toward those isles of yours that wait for me. Well, now, if little by little you stop loving me I shall stop loving you little by little. If suddenly you forget me do not look for me, for I shall already have forgotten you. If you think it long and mad, the wind of banners that passes through my life, and you decide to leave me at the shore of the heart where I have roots, remember that on that day, at that hour, I shall lift my arms and my roots will set off to seek another land. But if each day, each hour, you feel that you are destined for me with implacable sweetness, if each day a flower climbs up to your lips to seek me, ah my love, ah my own, in me all that fire is repeated, in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten, my love feeds on your love, beloved, and as long as you live it will be in your arms without leaving mine.

The Little Things Give You Away

Water grey

Through the windows, up the stairs

Chilling rain

Like an ocean everywhere

Don't want to reach for me do you

I mean nothing to you

The little things give you away

And now there will be no mistaking

The levees are breaking

All you've ever wanted

Was someone to truly look up to you

And six feet under water

I

Do

Hope decays

Generations disappear

Washed away

As a nation simply stares

Don't want to reach for me do you

I mean nothing to you

The little things give you away

But there will be no mistaking

The levees are breaking

All you've ever wanted

Was someone to truly look up to you

And six feet under water

I

Do

Something that came across my mind

While I was driving around, this came along and it make me smile =)

Look at the stars
Look how they shine for you
and everything you do
yeah they were all yellow
I came along
I wrote a song for you
and all the things you do
and it was called yellow
So then I took my turn
oh wh at a thing to have done
and it was all yellow

your skin
oh yeah your skin and bones
turn into something beautiful
and you know
you know I love you so
you know I love you so

I swam across
I jumped across for you
oh what a thing to do
'cos you were all yellow
I drew a line
I drew a line for you
oh what a thing to do
and it was all yellow

and your skin
oh yeah your skin and bones
turn into something beautiful
and you know
for you I bleed myself dry
for you I bleed myself dry

it's true
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine

look at the stars
look how they shine for you
and all the things that you do

look at the stars
look how they shine for you
and everything you do
yeah they were all yellow
I came along
I wrote a song for you
and all the things you do
and it was called yellow
So then I took my turn
oh wh at a thing to have done
and it was all yellow

your skin
oh yeah your skin and bones
turn into something beautiful
and you know
you know I love you so
you know I love you so

I swam across
I jumped across for you
oh what a thing to do
'cos you were all yellow
I drew a line
I drew a line for you
oh what a thing to do
and it was all yellow

and your skin
oh yeah your skin and bones
turn into something beautiful
and you know
for you I bleed myself dry
for you I bleed myself dry

it's true
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine

look at the stars
look how they shine for you
and all the things that you do

Do you really care?

Do you really care for me? You were always hot and cold..well most of the time you were cold. I can't stand this bi-polar of urs.

This is the moment i wish i'll have brain tumor and just be gone in 3 months.

Scary thoughts

I can't look straight at you

I don't even dare to talk to you

because If I did, i feel foolish.

How many times I've told myself that this is over,

but still, i'm doing the same routine.

When i was surrounded with your people,
I feel so uncomfortable,

this is new to me.

When I see you, my heart ache so much,

I almost cried but I know I can't.

Well at least I know why i'm having this weird feeling...

It's simply because I know I've lost the you that i once adore...

Geography of a Women

Between the ages of 15-20 a woman is like Africa.
She is half discovered, half wild.



Between the ages of 20-30 a woman is like America.
Fully discovered and scientifically perfect.



Between the ages of 30-35, she is like India Japan.
Very hot, wise and beautiful !!!!!!!!!



Between the ages of 35-40 a woman is like France.
She is half destroyed after the war but still desirable.



Between the ages of 40-50 she is like Germany.
She lost the war but not the hope.



Between the ages of 50-60 she is like Russia.
Very wide, very quiet but nobody goes there.



Between the ages of 60-70 a woman is like England.
With a glorious past but no future.


After 70, they become Siberia.
Everyone knows where it is, but no one wants to go there.

I hate you

I can't tell you what it really is, but I can tell you how i feel. Every time when we start to argue, have you ever thought why would I be this way? You never notice your meaness. You can just do it in front of everyone without caring how would I feel. I hate you for that. You always complain about me but what about you? You never really did your job well so don't expect me to be whoever you wish me to be. Well, at least i play my part. I hate you for that. I bet you didn't know you were the first one to break me down. I can climb back when i fall, but for you, i fall too deep till i can never recover from the injuries. The issue, is just too sensitive to me. I hate you for that. And recently, things have become worst. I don't wanna stay by your side. I don't want to see you. I don't want to get hurt anymore. There is no next time for you and me. You don't get another chance, because life is no nintendo game.

So Hard to Please

Sometimes it's just so hard to please everyone. In my life, I've been trying to please the people i care about and it always end up hurting them instead. I'm getting tired of this. I always get caught in between, and not knowing what to do, i end up making a big mistakes which i regret most. From a beautiful relationship to nothing..flame to dust, lovers to friends or maybe even enemy. I wonder if this is my problem since ppl been complaining about how i take things easily and just being ungrateful. What i'm really tired of is explaining stuff that i felt i don't have to coz i tot they would understand. But i guess that way won't work out coz i keep sending the wrong msges or maybe sometimes i am speechless about what they said coz deep in my heart, i know they're right. I gotta admit I can't handle those words they utter. Words are like sharp blade to me that it's even scarier than a real blade. Real blade hurt me physically but words...it can done more harm than that. I wonder why would i get hurt from all these...maybe i just cared too much. Now everything seems to be pointless to me..those tears of mine.

Happy Birthday to My Baby

12 july 1990, the day you were born. So now u're 20 *just wanna remind u of your age*, you are no longer a teens..mwahahaha!!! but the good thing about this is that you've become wiser. I hope this year birthday will be a memorable one for you because this is the first time we're celebrating it together!! Although my plans didn't work out that well, but i hope u will still love it..and your friends were really nice to help me out to surprise you =)) and there are few things i wanna tell you :

Happy Birthday Love!! Muackz! You are the only exception..i don't need a parachute when i'm with you because i know you'll catch me when I fall and baby if you strip, you can get a tips coz i like it just the way you are =p You're so high, high above me and you're so lovely. You've been a wonderful boyfriend. I just simply adore you =)

I love you and i'm glad you're mine XD

Over My Head

I never knew

I never knew that everything was falling through

That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue

To turn and run when all I needed was the truth

But that's how it's got to be

It's coming down to nothing more than apathy

I'd rather run the other way than stay and see

The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

Let's rearrange

I wish you were a stranger I could disengage

Just say that we agree and then never change

Soften a bit until we all just get along

But that's disregard

Find another friend and you discard

As you lose the argument in a cable car

Hanging above as the canyon comes between

And suddenly I become a part of your past

I'm becoming the part that don't last

I'm losing you and its effortless

Without a sound we lose sight of the ground

In the throw around

Never thought that you wanted to bring it down

I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

MOFO

I'm doing my assignment with my on going flu and you just have to cari pasal with me. I fucking beh tahan with you. You expect me to do the things that you asked within few minutes when you don't even do the things that i wanted within few minutes...now i'm stress. Fuck! I don't wanna talk to you.