Scary thoughts

I can't look straight at you

I don't even dare to talk to you

because If I did, i feel foolish.

How many times I've told myself that this is over,

but still, i'm doing the same routine.

When i was surrounded with your people,
I feel so uncomfortable,

this is new to me.

When I see you, my heart ache so much,

I almost cried but I know I can't.

Well at least I know why i'm having this weird feeling...

It's simply because I know I've lost the you that i once adore...

Geography of a Women

Between the ages of 15-20 a woman is like Africa.
She is half discovered, half wild.



Between the ages of 20-30 a woman is like America.
Fully discovered and scientifically perfect.



Between the ages of 30-35, she is like India Japan.
Very hot, wise and beautiful !!!!!!!!!



Between the ages of 35-40 a woman is like France.
She is half destroyed after the war but still desirable.



Between the ages of 40-50 she is like Germany.
She lost the war but not the hope.



Between the ages of 50-60 she is like Russia.
Very wide, very quiet but nobody goes there.



Between the ages of 60-70 a woman is like England.
With a glorious past but no future.


After 70, they become Siberia.
Everyone knows where it is, but no one wants to go there.

I hate you

I can't tell you what it really is, but I can tell you how i feel. Every time when we start to argue, have you ever thought why would I be this way? You never notice your meaness. You can just do it in front of everyone without caring how would I feel. I hate you for that. You always complain about me but what about you? You never really did your job well so don't expect me to be whoever you wish me to be. Well, at least i play my part. I hate you for that. I bet you didn't know you were the first one to break me down. I can climb back when i fall, but for you, i fall too deep till i can never recover from the injuries. The issue, is just too sensitive to me. I hate you for that. And recently, things have become worst. I don't wanna stay by your side. I don't want to see you. I don't want to get hurt anymore. There is no next time for you and me. You don't get another chance, because life is no nintendo game.

So Hard to Please

Sometimes it's just so hard to please everyone. In my life, I've been trying to please the people i care about and it always end up hurting them instead. I'm getting tired of this. I always get caught in between, and not knowing what to do, i end up making a big mistakes which i regret most. From a beautiful relationship to nothing..flame to dust, lovers to friends or maybe even enemy. I wonder if this is my problem since ppl been complaining about how i take things easily and just being ungrateful. What i'm really tired of is explaining stuff that i felt i don't have to coz i tot they would understand. But i guess that way won't work out coz i keep sending the wrong msges or maybe sometimes i am speechless about what they said coz deep in my heart, i know they're right. I gotta admit I can't handle those words they utter. Words are like sharp blade to me that it's even scarier than a real blade. Real blade hurt me physically but words...it can done more harm than that. I wonder why would i get hurt from all these...maybe i just cared too much. Now everything seems to be pointless to me..those tears of mine.

Happy Birthday to My Baby

12 july 1990, the day you were born. So now u're 20 *just wanna remind u of your age*, you are no longer a teens..mwahahaha!!! but the good thing about this is that you've become wiser. I hope this year birthday will be a memorable one for you because this is the first time we're celebrating it together!! Although my plans didn't work out that well, but i hope u will still love it..and your friends were really nice to help me out to surprise you =)) and there are few things i wanna tell you :

Happy Birthday Love!! Muackz! You are the only exception..i don't need a parachute when i'm with you because i know you'll catch me when I fall and baby if you strip, you can get a tips coz i like it just the way you are =p You're so high, high above me and you're so lovely. You've been a wonderful boyfriend. I just simply adore you =)

I love you and i'm glad you're mine XD

Over My Head

I never knew

I never knew that everything was falling through

That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue

To turn and run when all I needed was the truth

But that's how it's got to be

It's coming down to nothing more than apathy

I'd rather run the other way than stay and see

The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

Let's rearrange

I wish you were a stranger I could disengage

Just say that we agree and then never change

Soften a bit until we all just get along

But that's disregard

Find another friend and you discard

As you lose the argument in a cable car

Hanging above as the canyon comes between

And suddenly I become a part of your past

I'm becoming the part that don't last

I'm losing you and its effortless

Without a sound we lose sight of the ground

In the throw around

Never thought that you wanted to bring it down

I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

MOFO

I'm doing my assignment with my on going flu and you just have to cari pasal with me. I fucking beh tahan with you. You expect me to do the things that you asked within few minutes when you don't even do the things that i wanted within few minutes...now i'm stress. Fuck! I don't wanna talk to you.